New Year

Looking back at the year that I thought was pretty mellow actually turned to be a little nuts! This year I feel learned how to set and keep my own goals and how important it is to be happy with yourself above everything and how struggling to help everyone can so easily detour you from yourself. All in all I think I grew up a lot this year, and heading into 2013 I feel a strength inside of me that I like but a fear at the same time of starting off new. I want to make sure that 2013 is spent building myself into a better human from the beginning, doing what I want without the unnecessary fears or guilt and living my life to the fullest. Its starting to sound selfish to me now, but I know I also can't give back the way I'd like to until I am a developed human being with the physical and mental ability to do so.
So 2013 for me is dedicated to hard work, personal strength and much love and appreciation for those who truly love me and those who truly help me through the best and tough times.
Tonight I'll be ringing in the new year with family and support for a new beginning. And some champagne.

How do you love a trouble maker who tells you nothing but his troubles?
As a self proclaimed optimist at this point I'm even having a hard time trying to see the light.
It's some how gone so far off into the distance from where it was before that i'm starting to feel like I'm falling into this deep dark tunnel of,
well,
trouble.
I used to think my optimism brought light into our world, yet anytime I try to shine I find myself constantly turned off and tuned out.
And when I try to be trouble, you love me but I hate myself.
So where the hell is this going?
I'm trying to figure this out because the last thing I want for myself is to find myself suddenly at the bottom of some deep
dark
hole.
With nothing left but hope and no light at the end of the tunnel.

Where Have I Been?!

Wow its been a while since I've seen this thing, and looking over my past writings i'm honestly pretty pissed at myself that I haven't kept going after high school. It's three years later after writers craft end and my love for writing seemingly faded away. I'll be back to writing soon, since a lots been going on through my head: questioning my love, my goals and my self. Meanwhile I'll be listening to Alabama Shakes and studying for finals.

Realization

ive come to this realization that the best of my actions are done upon which i dont involve an incredible amount of thinking.

i've been realizing that most of my decisions lately, haven't involved inquisitive questions and comments of my own or the opinion of others and this way, the results have only been beneficial.

Less stress, less worries and more momentum towards the future rather than living in the past, which only proves useless.

I've said before that living in the past gets you no where, but applying lessons that you've learnt from such will help you today.

these realizations can explain why i havent been writing so much, where i was admititly addicted to it last semester.

the more you write the more you think, the more i thought, the more i stressed, the more i worried and the more i wondered of possibility, impossibilities and the future.

I've always been a strong believer in living for the present, it gives you less the think about, less for your plate, and more time to relax and ultimately do something completely and totally irrelevant, because why not?

Venting has always been an amazing stress relief and through writing it can release a mass amount of feelings, and i think its an amazing thing, something that i have continuously referred back to, but if we live for the present, we won't have as much to write about now will we?

on this note, i cant say i'll be writing a whole lot more, but then again, minds change and one day i could just be a hypocrite, but as of now,

i say live, and write about living, rather than past life.

i wish i could say a tune, because sometimes i feel like it expresses more than the lyrics do

Try Motivational For A Change

We invented the word Possible.
We defined the word Possible.
The possibility of Possibility is
possible.

We can Stick together,
Fit together, Stay
together.

We can Fight together,
Win Together, We can
Cure Together.

We can Accept.

Form Peace,
The reality we've always wanted.

They say "yes we can" and i believe
yes we can.

We can try motivational for a change.

"If you don't like change, You're going to like irrelevancy even less"